^_^

it was indeed a long time since i posted in this blog. in those times a lot of things have changed that may have affected my own life. it started with the frustrating batch meeting of my batch. words of disappointment were heard with the teachers whom we believe to be the most "reliable" faculty members we could have in our entire high school life. as christmas makes is way on to my so called "pressure" list wrinkles in my face becomes more evident.(here are my pressure list):

top 5: the projects that is yet to be submitted gives me the headache that bothers me a lot
top 4: the christmas dance entitled "let it be the best"... no one understands me from wishing to wear something elegant...they don't get my point of hoping to be at my best...
top 3: gifts!!! the pressure of giving gifts to my friends frightens me
top 2: the intramurals 2009! it will surely be a clash of different forces...the pre-matuer(freshmen), last year's underdogs(sophies)the "big faces"(juniors)and of course the bullies(seniors)

...
toping the list in my pressure list is...(drum beat) the day after tomorrow...it really frightens me to think about the following day, its as if someone runs after me that a lot of things should be done...:(( huhuhuhu!!!

(i'll pray na talaga next time promise)
signing out

i was moved

last friday, during our ccf class that is around 12-1:00 in the afternoon, we had a seatwork regarding the psalms from the bible. in that given seatwork we were also asked to write a letter for forgiveness to anyone whom we wish, i did write one, for my brother:(:-d. it reads:
Dear Kuya,
I have always idolized you since the day I came out in this world. I have seen every accomplishments you've made that made me idolize you even more. But now, I would like to ask for forgiveness for simply irritating you each day and for being a worthless brother. I promise that I will remain your fan and that i will always be here if you need someone to lean onto.

Avid fan,
Michael

:((

**signing out

LIFE!!!!

Well, first thing to share is about the academic week. The whole week was a lot of fun. As in, i was just star gazing before i left the school each day...well, the true story is this. ACADEMIC WEEK IS SO STRESSFUL! arghh...(though it paid off)i was really foolish...isipin niyo inangkin ko lahat....AS IN LAHAT!!! i asked for everything and lost in almost everything:))...true enough academic week is one event in the high school department in which you should worry about, not because of the pressure of having almost every subject as a contest but to be in the usual tradition of excellence...
everyday i have one common line to tell my friends and myself:"naku, matapos lang talaga tong linggong to, okei na ako...pwede na akong magpahinga"
bottom line:hay...SUPER SAYA!

the following days...

...came in a surprise

This week...i am quite unsure of what to take in consideration. Should i pull off my enjoyment for everyone or should i enjoy and let them learn to survive?
I thought i wouldn't have any stress-causing events for a long time...i thought! pero wala pang isang linggo...problema na naman...1,2,3

1) Lets' start with the "Peace and Order" thing(as they call it).We recently had a meeting with the class presidents and/or representatives regarding the said matter. ELIZABETH SETON SCHOOL HIGH SCHOOL DEPARTMENT IS OFFICIALLY IN A BIG CHAOS...why?!simply because there's no give-and-take relationship that is seen in the faculty and students na! ahirap po kayang puro na lang teachers ang kumikilos while the students don't cooperate...or vice versa.

Please!Please!please lang poh!

2)Field Trip! B-O-R-I-N-G! both places na pinuntahan ng batch namin, super boring...ung mga sumama pumunta sa isang lugar na pangkaraniwan yung mga naiwan/hindi sumama nasa library buong araw! what the hell is happening:))!!!grabeh na...wait!


---lost of words---

hay!


3)last...intramurals 08-09
-kailangan po naman kayo, yung suporta niyo po ang pinaka kailangang namin
-magtutulungan po kaming ipakita sa inyo na kaya pang magbago
-susubukan pa naming buhayin ang namamatay nang pag-asa sa batch na 'to
=lastly, lalaban kami...hindi lang para sa karangalan,pero, kaya kami lalaban para po maipakta sa inyo na mahal namin kayo kaya handa kaming mapahiya o maghirap para sa inyo!!


---help!---

**Lord God, thank You for another day that you have blessed and given upon us. Truly, each day has been wonderful because of Your deeds. Each day, it has been a christmas for us for us long as we live with each side-by-side. You have amazes us in many ways possible. We assure You Lord God not us a person but as Your sons and daughter that everything we will do should not only be for ourselves but for everyone else, Amen

lots of things...

okay. so here is the run through of the things to discuss:
1.promise broken(again!)
2.what's wrong with me?
3.laziness


1.promise broken(again!)
-->on my very first post in this blog, i have posted there that i would not miss just a single day without posting something. i meant it. on the first time i missed posting in this blog, i neglected. "never mind, the things i've done is more important than this blog".that was one thing i told myself that day. days passed, i've missed posting for a day;2 days, 3 days...and four.

what the hell is happening to me!

just before posting this blog, i've realized something. nothing is more important than this blog for nowif i miss a single blog then that would be a great reason for me to stop posting for a while. in that small while i will be able to reach a thousand times of missing a new post. this blog is really important to me, specially that i don't express my state of being to other people. I AM DUALISTIC.i need this blog, and writing in this blog is a major component of my life that helps me forget everything.(*sigh)

2. what's wrong with me?
--> hindi ko talaga alam kung anong meron sakin this year. masyado kong pinagpipilitang sumali sa lahat-lahat. pinagpipiltan kong maging kilala sa lahat ng aspeto. ako ba ang my may mali sa buhay ko o yung mga taong nakapaligid sa akin at walang sawa sa pagpuna sa mga pagkukulang bilang isang ESTUDYANTE? masama bang gumawa ng isang bagay na gusto mo? ang alam ko hindi! hindi ko rin maintindihan kung bakit kailangan nilang ipamukha sakin kung ano ako dapat. nakakainis. magkaiba po kami, uulitin ko lang. hindi niyo po pwedeng sabihin na you're expecting a lot from me, dahil hindi porke magkapatid kami eh pareho kami ng katauhan.

argh!
ayoko na!
our power v.s. their power...
...which will succeed?

the power of the people who believes that each individual is unique and different...

...or the people who thinks that talent is passed through each people's blood?

3.laziness
-->sinalihan ko lahat. i've joined every contest in the academic week. not because i still wanna prove something but because i want this. i want this so badly. i simply love everything. but, i still don't understand why in some point of my personality, i easily stop...and be lazy. ANDAMI KAYANG MADADAMAY.KALA MO!. grabeh.

exhausted na uli itong kaawa-awa kong utak

-->i've learned na...dapat lang noh! ayoko nang maisip pa kung ganu kawalang-awa tong mundong to. mula sa bawat tao, estudyante, guro hanggang sa gobyerna....

**(ayoko muna gumawa ng prayer ngayon, medyo masama pa yung kalagayan ng utakko eh...pangit naman kong magdadasal ako ng masama naman yung laman ng utak koh)(sori)

dOconfusedOb

my stress-free day has just ended

i woke up this morning thinking again of one thing, at last i'm normal...AGAIN! i've been a freak this past months. i've been very weird...why? simply because my mind works each day for about 23 hrs. and 59 mins. as in a single minute lang ata ung rest ng utak ko. today? everything will be different. EVERYTHING WILL BE DIFFERENT(emphasized). let's start with my mind set, yes yes everythings great...wala akong problema ngayon.tama! as in wala.not unless proproblemahin ko pati si kambing, pero i won't it's useless baka masira lang itong STRESS-FREE DAY KO!second, everything is erased. i was trying off super hard kanina. wala kasing pumapasok sa utak ko,kainis! arghh...mahirap nga parang pati yung creativity ko(well as they call it) bigla na lamang naglaho. ugh! kainis. third, wala akong ibang inisip kundi ang magsaya at kailangan kong lubos-lubusin ang araw na 'to. bakit? KASI PARANG ONCE IN A MILLENIUM NA LANG TOH MANGYAYARI. well, nahirapan talaga ako, i must admit. nahirapan akong umalis sa aking normal na buhay. it was very hard for me to be out of my normal life.(that's for, normal life ko yun)it's very hard to do especially if a lot of things might happen if i've done this a long time ago!mahirap talaga! honestly!

**Lord, You've given us a lot of things that is essential in our lives. We might have done things mistakenly, but we assure that we will be doing our best to make the best out of the things You've given us. Just be with us Lord every step of the way, so that everything maybe pleasing to your sight, Amen.

ningas kugon

our section, basilan 08-09 has a lot of great potentials. that is what we believe and that is what our teachers is telling us. we believe, of course! we've shown a lot of people that we are not just students, we are talented. hay!!!iba na talaga ako magyabang ngayon,nyahaha! honestly,.. oo kaya namin(bihira ako magsabi ng ganun). we've placed second in a contest that is said to be a win with less than 50% of our skills...:)..(isang teacher ang nagsabi niyan)tama nga! kaya namin, pero ayaw namin! nakakainis talaga. bakit lahat ng katamran napunta sa'min?!bakit?!parati naming hindi natatapos ang isang bagay na sobrang ganda nung pinaplano pa lang. nakakainis! sayang lahat! ewan...basta ang alam ko kaya namin, ayaw lang talaga namin kumilos...kung kikilos man hindi tatapusin!

**Lord,you have given each one of use certain talents and capabilities in which we may share with the other people. You have blessed us not only with material goods, but also the things that we need in order for us to serve you, Lord, we may have mistaken other things to be valuable and so we are very sorry for this things. Just stay with us Lord, and let your shower be upon us always, Amen

Renewed

ginawa ko na yung gusto kong gawin, ang burahin ang lahat ng bagay sa aking utak...
kelan?...
nung sabado at kahapon, linggo...




ang sarap ng feeling...

pagod...

renewed...

happy...

unstoppable...













LIVING and LOVING...
Right with Him...Freed by Him...













(sorry babawi ako tomorrow, i was'nt able to post yesterday due to severe ilnnes that is called, Love for God!)

slowly breathing